More Than Enough

So, do you ever have a worship song convict you? Last night, the song Enough, sung by Barlow Girl was on. It's a pretty popular worship song and I began singing along.

You are my supply
My breath of life
Still more awesome than I know.
You are my reward
Worth living for
Still more awesome than I know.

Those words so true. God is so awesome. More awesome than I know.
Then I got to the chorus.

And all of you
Is more than enough for all of me
For every thirst and every need
You satisfy me with your love
And all I have in you is more than enough

And that's when it happened. I realized that I don't allow God to be enough...all I need. I don't let Him satisfy my EVERY need. I like to try to satisfy needs on my own. I like to satisfy some weird addiction to celebrity gossip by spending time reading US, instead of reading the Bible. I haven't done a morning, noon or evening devotion in a couple of weeks. But, I can tell you why Sara Evans is getting a divorce, how much weight Britney Spears has lost, and that Katie Holmes is getting married in Italy.

I spend free time watching junk on television. Yes, junk. A lot of it goes directly against The Word. The Word, which is supposed to be enough, takes the back burner to Grey's Anatomy and weird makeover shows.

I spend time grumbling and complaining because I need new boots, more money and more sleep. I don't pray for God to help me rest. Although He says to come to Him when weary. I instead blame my hubby or my kiddos. It would have nothing to do with the fact that I drink 3 Pepsi's from 6:00 P.M. on.

I have raised my hands in worship to God countless times while singing Enough. And for the most part my heart is genuine and true in singing that song.

You're my sacrifice
Of greatest price
Still more awesome than I know.
You're my coming King
You're my everything
Still more awesome than I know.

And then of course, the chorus comes again and I am left to feel a little unworthy.

And all of you
Is more than enough for
All of me
For every thirst and every need
You satisfy me with your love
And all I have in you is more than enough
You are more than enough.

More than all I want
More than all I need
You are more than enough for me.
More than all I know
More than all I can see
You are more than enough for me.